1 Litre of Tears-Diary

Dorama ini -1 Litre of Tears (1 Ritoru no Namida)- diambil dari kisah nyata, menceritakan ttg seorang Aya yang berjuang menghadapi penyakit Spinocerebellar Degeneration dari usia 15 sampai 25 tahun. Penyakit tersebut merupakan penyakit syaraf yang akan menurunkan kemampuan fisik secara bertahap, mulai dari kelumpuhan sampai kehilangan kemampuan menulis dan berbicara, bahkan untuk menelan makanan. Parahnya, penyakit ini tidak bisa diobati, sehingga selama bertahun-tahun Aya menghadapi penyakit ini , sementara itu kemampuan fisiknya mulai menurun dari hari ke hari. Selama itu, ia menulis apa yang dipikirannya dalam sebuah diary hingga ia meninggal pada 23 Mei 1988 12:55 am.
Nah.. di sini gw tulis beberapa kutipan diary nya yg ada di film 1 Litre of Tears dari episode 1-11. Menurut gw kata2nya bisa dijadiin bahan pelajaran buat kita.

My life is like a flower that hasn’t bloomed yet.
From the start of this youth, I want to treasure it and have no regrets.

Okaasan. In my heart, I know I can always trust my mom.
From this point forward, I leave it for you.
I’m sorry for always making you worry.

This disease, why it did choose me?
Fate. It can’t be put into words.

I want to make a time machine and go back in time.
If it wasn’t for this disease, not only I could I enjoy falling in love but I also wouldn’t have to rely on anyone and live by myself.

I really don’t want to say things such as “I want to go back to how things were before”.
I recognize how I am right now, and I will continue to live on.

Therefore I definitely won’t run away.
That’s what I’ll do. Definitely, always.

Even if it’s like that, I still want to stay here.
Because this is the place where I am.
To be able to be seen as an equal by my friends, I’m really thankful.
“We’ve started to like reading, under Aya’s influence”, they said.
“Ah! that’s great”. I didn’just only make trouble for them…
Thinking like this, I’ve started not mind it that much.

If you look up at the sky after falling down the blue sky is also today stretching limitlessly and smiles at me… I’m alive.
I’m alive.
There are still four days until school ends.
Seems like that because of me, everyone is folding a thousand paper cranes.
The looks they had when they were folding so diligently,
I’m going to keep them deep in my memory.
Even when we’ve been separated, I will never forget them. But… I’d rather hear them say “Aya-chan, don’t go.”

People shouldn’t dwell on the past. It’s enough to try your best in all that you’re doing now.
The sounds, “ma”, “wa”, “ba” and “n” have become hard to pronounce.
I can only breathe out air instead of saying it. So I can’t communicate with others.
Recently, I have been talking to myself a lot. I didn’t like it before,
but to practice pronouncing, I have to do it. I will not give up on speaking…

Reality is too cruel, too brutal. I don’t even have the right to dream.
As I think about the future, the tears will come out again.
Where should I head towards? Even if there isn’t an answer, I’ll feel better by writing it down.
I’ve looked for a pair of helping hands. But I couldn’t feel them, couldn’t see them.
I only face towards the darkness and hear sounds of my hopeless screams.

Okaasan, will I be able to get married?

Minggu Tegang

Katanya mo uas ada minggu tenang.., minggu buat belajar. Tapi yg gw rasain malah minggu tegang, uas dah deket, apalagi senen UAS SIA-lan. Yang terjadi di minggu ini adalah buat ngerjain tugas yg buaanyaakk.. trus bikin gw tidur malem terus. Mana Anaprancis low progress…
Waduh….

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~bpkSIA-lan

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